ifOnly...

if only i can turn back time.
if only i can be more confident in myself to make the decision i really want to make at that point of time.
if only i can have a "2nd go" again.
if only i can really "speak" my mind out that day.
if only i can be firm with my thinking and pursue it regardless of wadeva.

if only.
if only..
if only...

if only life has a "RESTART FROM LAST SAVE POINT" option.
if only life is a game.

BUT*

life aint a game.
its something, different.
where every actions u make changes your life totally.
there shouldnt be any "if only" in my excuses.
i can only blame myself for wad happened.
for its myself who has decided to "turtle" out.
im just a weak/fragile guy who acts strong/tough.
to provide that illusion.
to not make pple who cares abt me worry,
to make pple who duno me fear me.
but all in all,
is just to runaway from mistakes i make.
to cowardice in the face of an epidemic.
man am i retarded.

#it was within your reach.
but u chose to let it go and whine here when the problem can no longer be salvage.
might be possible.
but no1 noes when.

*YongJie.
you ought to learn and change.
if not u will be stuck at where u are,
forever.