29thAugust2009

29th August 2009.

This marks a special day for YYJ. yes for me. Why??

oh well.

im now at Kallang Leisure Park where something very unfortunate happened.

not just one but two?

bah! why cant my plans go smoothly?? Never! sucks. :/

guess this is life. how things just happened despite you trying to prevent it.

the story is simple. i lost my camera! @£$%^

in fact i got this premonition of me losing my camera in one way or another.

saw this lost sony camera "ad" in the arcade in fact asking for the camera to be returned with no questions asked and a price money upon returning.

was very down the first 2 hrs in fact.

but now is like.. okay lor.. i think i lost this camera but i "THINK" i learned something.

im actually not that mad now. im just mad over the pictures inside that wasnt archived!.

actually there wasnt any memory card inserted. infact i inserted myself. gosh~!

fated? i guess so..

after some reflecting of the series of events, i learned and understood something.

I GONNA BE LAZY NO MORE!

WHY? losing the camera does not hurt me that much actually.. im just emo over the photos that i lost.. memories.

its something that i treasure the most, something that cant be bought with no matter how much $$.

why in the first place the photos are still inside the memory card? cuz i dint archive!

best is that this aint the first time i lost my camera.. bah!

I SWORN TO STOP BEING LAZY,

driving license, dragonboat trainings, my daily gym trainings, my alt swims and runs, tidiness of my room,

i want a change in myself. again, for the better.

im a diff person already, pretty much when compared to perhaps 2 years ago?

a INTROVERT to a EXTROVERT.

a UNFRIENDLY guy to a FRIENDLY guy.

a everyday WHINING guy to a will try to find SOLUTION guy.

a LAW BY LAW guy to a always finding ALTERNATIVES guy.

i changed. but i want to change more.

get rid of my laziness. well, wish me luck!

YYJ~ you need to be able to do it before saying! all say and no action is plain stupidity! retarded fking shittard!

oh well hope this works.. here goes nothing....



**i really love you, im giving all i can/have to you. i do hope things work out for us. but there's this much i can do, that much i can wait. afterall, im still a guy, who needs that bit of love from you. i wont say im a good bf, at least i know im trying to be one.

-yyyyyj